A Journey of Grief and Joy: A Year of Opposites

The month of February is bittersweet. It’s the reminder of the call last year that changed everything: a diagnosis of Muscular Dystrophy for our daughter, along with the celebration of both children’s birthdays to remind us we have been blessed with another year with them. It feels surreal : like sometimes it’s been forever and…

When the Journey to Abundance Doesn’t Look Like I Wanted

Instead of a new year resolution, I started this year with a word I felt God placed on my heart to guide me: Abundance. Deep down, I knew that even though my life was nearly perfect, I often missed the abundance God had for me in it. I eagerly listed all the ways that I…

Shake it Off: Music for Moody Moms Like Me

Before I became a mom, I thought I was pretty even-keel. Not easily rattled. Yet there is nothing like two-tiny, needy little humans to prove me just how fickle my moods can be. Often, moods of frustration, anger, or sadness are triggered by simply letting myself think my own thoughts. These are always exaggerated. These…

Learning to Embrace Setbacks

I was in a meeting and looked down at my phone. It was a local number. This meant it was either my doctor or dentist reminding me about an upcoming appointment I’d forgotten about, or it was the dreaded call from daycare to come pick up one of my kids. “It’s not an emergency”, she…

Jesus: The Best Wine

In this passage of John 2:1-12 we see Jesus’ first miracle, turning water into wine at the wedding in Cana. At first blush this is a story many of us know, and since I tend to skim when I read, I was especially having a hard time seeing what we can learn from this other…

When All the Sleep Books Lie – 3 Truths for Tired Mamas

I have a 13 month old and a 4 year old. It’s not really a secret for anyone who knows me that I think it took about 2-3 years for my now 4 year old to sleep consistently and without waking up. Even now he has weeks where he conjures up some reason to wake…

Trusting God in the Fog of Motherhood

I haven’t written a post in a while because often when I feel I have a complete thought, epiphany, or turning point to share.  Instead, this journey of motherhood has left me feeling like I have been traveling through fog. Sometimes it’s really dense and I can’t see more than two feet in front of…

Work/Life Balance is a Shitty God

Whatever becomes most ultimate in our lives is in essence a god we worship. You can look around and clearly see that people’s passion, time, money, belongings all tend to gravitate towards what they worship.  These things can become mini-gods.  They drive us.  Our time, energy, emotions, and hope are poured into them with our hearts…

Become Unraveled

Life has a way of taking control of us, and little by little robbing us of the eternal joys of looking upward.  Demands at work, the approval of others in our life, the stack of family responsibilities, getting kids and babies out the door every morning, all of these come together into an ongoing game…

Unshakable 

It’s clearer to me as I get older about just how fragile or unpredictable life can be. Recently, I have heard so many tragic stories recently of young families losing a child, from situations they “could” have controlled. My heart sinks as I consider myself in that situation. I wonder if my faith would be…

God is at Hand: Romans 8:28

A simple reminder that God is at hand in your life, and he can do what nothing in this world can : create purpose and beauty out of your shortcomings, struggles, and messy life.    

Reminders for the Working Mom Going Back to Work

Last week was my first full week of working again since I left on maternity leave.  In the weeks leading up to the day, I felt that familiar sinking feeling in my gut.  I knew I had to leave my baby with another person.   I knew that my emotions may be okay one instant and…