This morning I sit, not knowing exactly where to start. My mind and my heart are disconnected, or maybe just cold and uncaring. I make my way to Psalms to help me to pray, and I see “Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name!”. I am jealous that this isn’t my first reaction, isn’t my first prayer.
I remember the scriptures telling me that this okay, and God has already solved for this. The scriptures say, “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Praise God that I can’t think of lofty words. Praise God I don’t know where to start this morning. Praise God that in the moment of feeling lost – I realize I’m right where God wants me to be. I’m in awe of having a God that can look at my soul and know immediately what I need.