After months of struggling with what I should do with my life, I’m right here. It’s 6:40 am and I should be heading out to work, but I’m instead starting a blog. A blog where I hope that at the very least I can derive some benefits from documenting my day to day.
The main reason for starting this blog is that I have no current direction. I’m a Christian in a business world. I’m in my twenty somethings and I’ve been working for two years. And yet, I’m faced with a condition called “I don’t know what to do with my life.”
If I said this to others in my life they would look at me strangely. From the outside my life seems very put together, without very many snags along the way. After graduating college, I seamlessly went into a job in a field in which I had wanted to do since high school. And ever since I created a great reputation there, managing to turn an entry level job into a career in a newly emerging field. In 85 days I’m about to get married to the love of my life and we are thinking about buying a house.
And yet in all of this, I can’t help but have this nagging feeling that I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. My dreams have become reality, and now it is dawning on me that these dreams may have been other’s dreams all along. My job may have been my Dad’s dream to see me successful. My career aspirations at my current job may have been a result of my boss’s dream to start a company. And so the more and more I continue, the more that I realize that I’m not sure what my dreams are anymore, and if I were to have them if they would even be in God’s plan or if they would be a distraction from God’s plan.
And so, this blog is designed to help figure this out. To set new passions in life, to find a deeper meaning in the day to day, and to share my experiences as I stumble through.