Just got back from church, in which we talked about the grace of God in James 4:6-10. Sometimes my heart is so cold that I hear “grace of God” but I don’t feel its magnitude or its weight. I realized that I’ve been so prideful – to the point that even identifying sin was a difficult exercise.
Yet I was able to sit in church and sing the song “It is well with my soul”, and believe that my sin (not in part but the whole) has been nailed to the cross. Even that sin that I can’t even identify. Even the sin that makes it difficult to pray. Even the sin that says I can do things better than God, and the same sin that turns right around and says I can’t do anything right.
As I walked out of church feeling 10 lbs lighter – I see how God isn’t just pursuing me at church, but every day of life. The moment I sit down to check email I read:
Jesus replied, “If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water.” – John 4:10
If I only knew the gift God has for me. If I’d see his grace, then I’d see my sin in a way that doesn’t discourage me or leave me in despair – but I’d begin to understand what Jesus did for me, and the magnitude of what he is doing for me this very second.
I know my perspective of God is far too little. But I know that through his grace, I’ll be able to view my relationship with him as living water to my soul.