Lately I’ve been in a very soul searching mood. I didn’t update last week because quite frankly I needed some time to think about things.
Thursday was a big day trip to a client and I had one of those days where I really just wanted to give up and trade the suit I was wearing in for sweat pants and a spot on my couch. I fought the good fight, but I was defeated. The client wasn’t happy, and as a result I wasn’t either.
Then, by the grace of God – Friday and the weekend came. There was so packed into those days, yet it all refreshed me and it was a true gift.
Now it is Monday, and I’m looking out on a new week. As I am searching in Scripture and looking for the peace and direction of God, I feel like I’m bringing him the same prayers this week than last. This is when I have two words pop in my head, “Quit Wallowing”.
I’m taking these as words from God, and I’m making them my motto this week. Yes, I have a lot to do and I’m afraid that I’m putting my eggs sometimes in the wrong baskets. Yes, I’m nervous things won’t work out the way that I want them to. Yes, I may not be the best example of a Christian. But I have to move from this place with the knowledge that God is capable of maturing me and getting me past this same place.
With God, I don’t have to wallow in this self pity and the identity defined by yesterday. With God, I have freedom. With God, I am able to wallow in his grace and love instead of fear and regret.
So, I will intentionally say no to wallowing, and instead start moving through the love and grace of God. So if you see me rolling around on the ground please pick me back up.
Just so I don’t feel like the only crazy person: What are you wallowing in that you need to give to God? Please share in the comments below.