Tonight was one of those nights where after dinner and a walk, and a little bit of laundry, I had a few minutes where Billy was working on something and I had this little piece of solitude.
At first, my mind went to the work I could be doing to get ahead. Then my mind drifted to the desire to write, and then somehow I landed on a study guide from my church, with the following quote:
Archbishop William Temple once said, “Your religion is what you do with your solitude.” In other words, the true God of your heart is what your thoughts effortlessly go to when there is nothing else demanding your attention… One or two daydreams are no indication of idolatry. Ask rather, what do you habitually think about to get joy and comfort in the privacy of your heart?
I see clearly that most often my thoughts and actions swing from being centered around rest and ease, to being centered around the notion of “getting ahead”.
Through grace, God used this small moment of solitude to shift the focus away from the idol of myself, and show me the beauty of being open to spending time thinking and considering him. If such joy and comfort came from these few moments, imagine if I gave him more?